Sometimes there are so many thoughts swirling in one's mind that it's hard to express them. The journal sits, unopened, on top of a stack of books that are partially read. The blog sits, quiet, except for a few friends who still read and leave some love and smiles in the form of a comment.
Visits are few. Emails dwindle.
How do you share when there is so much on your heart, on your mind, that you don't know where to start? Avenues of thought to be explored, word pictures to be drawn, email visits with friends to be had.
I capture moments, trying to grasp every little bit about my little princess in a single frame. But how do you capture giggles and twirls and new words? What shutter speed is fast enough or slow enough?
And then I realize it. The simple truth. I don't have to do it all. I don't have to have all the answers, have all the time to write and visit, communicate my heart. I can't. It's simply too much. And I'm the only one expecting that of myself.
I'm called to love. To love God with all that I am and to love others.
Words will come, time will come, thoughts will be sorted out and life will continue to be lived, one moment at a time.
Exactly what I needed to hear this morning Breanne! Hope you are doing well! Hopefully soon we can visit again and string some more of those thoughts along?
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and you are also called to be loved by God!
ReplyDeleteWords WILL come, my friend. Sometimes it's OK to just be. Just observe. Experience. Enjoy. Weep. Rest. I've done a lot of that lately. :-) Big hug to you. :-)
ReplyDeleteSo refreshing to hear and be reminded of! Isn't it GOOD to know that we don't have to have all the answers, we don't have to do everything right, we don't have to stress over spending the perfect amount of time with each person - just love God and love others. That has been the focus of much of my learning these past few months... Love you girly!
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Breanne, I read all your posts as a way to keep in touch. I rarely say anything, though.
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